I woke up this morning feeling a bit grumpy. I suspect it was related some bad feelings I experienced just before I fell asleep last night. Anywhere on social media there are always these images and memes reminding you that “No can make you feel inferior without your consent” or “Don’t let others steal your joy” and others to that effect. Once in a while though, people get the better of you and you just can’t help but feel hurt or affected by the things the ones you love say.
How do we get past it when our loved ones say things that hurt us? Particularly when there is no apology forthcoming because they feel they’re just being truthful? The difference between me and other folks is that I care about not hurting another’s feelings and if I have to say something that does, I can usually explain why I’m being blunt. More often than not, I try to be nice even when I have to say something unpleasant so that the sting doesn’t hurt as much. Maybe that’s why I’m taken for granted a lot of times.
I think some people feel a sense of power in causing pain? Maybe, I don’t know. Why is it that the ones you love the most have the ability to hurt you the most? Why do your loved ones take your love and affection for granted? Never a “can you help me please?” – Rather I get the “I need such and such, let me know when is a good time.” I’m tempted to say “How about when you ask me and say please?”! Of course I’d never do that though. Then I feel shitty that I haven’t stood up for myself, or honored my truth.
Enough of my little pity party. Onward and upward I say. No complaining, no bitching, just keep trudging along to the next day. Tomorrow is a brand new day, and though it’s forecast to rain all day, I plan to wake up with a smile and forget about the feelings I experienced today.
♫♪ Raindrops keep falling on my head
But that doesn’t mean my eyes will soon be turnin’ red
Crying’s not for me
Cause I’m never gonna stop the rain by complainin’
Because I’m free
Nothing’s worrying me ♫♪